Maybe Life Is Teaching Me How To Be Alone 🖤

Sometimes I just sit quietly and think about how fast everything changed.

Back then school life felt alive 😭 Not perfect… but real.

There was me, Nadeesha, and Sethmuthu.

Three completely different people.

Nadeesha was talented in many things. Sports, studies, band, even school fights he acted like that fearless hero type 💥😅 Always joking, always showing off a little in front of girls just to look “pora” 😂

Sethmuthu was the brain of the group 🧠♟️ Education, chess, logic… everything calculated.

And me?

I was the tech guy 💻⚡ Coding, apps, internet stuff, dreaming big in silence. Now also trying gym life 🏋️‍♂️ — building myself piece by piece.

Not the strongest. Not the smartest. Not the most popular.

But I was me… and we were a group.

We laughed together 😂 Fought like idiots 😤 Fixed things again like nothing happened Walked school like we owned the place

It felt normal.

Now I realize… it was actually everything.

Then life started separating us.

Nadeesha left school first… Rahula 🏫 I told myself it’s okay.

Now Sethmuthu also got selected there.

And something inside me just went quiet.

Not jealousy. Not hate.

Just… empty.

Like a part of my everyday life got deleted forever 💔

Now school feels different.

Same classrooms… same people… but not the same world.

And maybe the worst part is long distance.

Not only friends… even love.

I love someone deeply ❤️ But she is far away too.

People think texting is enough.

It’s not.

I don’t want more “I miss you” texts 📱 I don’t want more emojis ❤️😭

I just want presence.

I want real moments. I want real smiles. I want real silence beside someone.

Because no message can replace sitting next to the person you love.

But instead…

I sit alone in front of a screen 📱 waiting… typing… overthinking… repeating…

And slowly you start realizing something painful:

People don’t stay in the same place as your feelings.

They move. They change schools. They change lives. They change distance.

And you just… stay with memories.

Sometimes I feel like I’m always the one left behind 😔

Friends go. Love stays far. Moments don’t repeat.

And no matter how strong I act… some nights still feel heavy.

Like silence is louder than everything else 🌙

Maybe I’m learning something.

Or maybe I’m just losing people one by one.

I don’t even know anymore.

All I know is....

I miss what we had… and nothing feels like it again 💔🖤😔